Sunday, December 7, 2008

More Minutiae

I guess this is where the last post left off.

My financial issues are still pretty high, but I was talking with a good friend, who hates how I'm stuck out here. He wants me and Case to move out, and he suggested selling my car. The thought had not occurred to me... I mean, my car is how I get around. It got me across the country. My parents basically gave it to me once I moved out here - I have the title and everything. It gets me to work - all the job apps. I've filled out lately, I've checked off that I have reliable transportation.
But work is still scarce. I'm worried about my money, and I really don't want to be here anymore. I looked in the Kelley Blue Book online, and it says that my car, if it were in excellent condition, would be $3660. It's not in excellent condition, but it runs well enough, gets good gas mileage, and even has a CD player/MP3 jack in it. So maybe it would be worth somewhere closer to $3000... but $3000 would take care of my credit card bill, and it would give me money to help pay my bills in the future, and maybe start saving up for a place elsewhere.

So, pros of selling the car:
Money in my bank account, enough to pay my credit card bill and start saving
No more car insurance (since no car)
No more gas issues
No worries about future mechanical issues

Cons of selling the car:
Gift from my parents, don't know what they would think
Less mobility in general
Fewer opportunities for work
Have to work out carpooling with people

So I guess that's something to think about. Part of me is cringing about losing the car, because I love that car - it's been "my" car since I was a junior in high school. With it, I've been stuck in a snowbank, busted both bumpers, and dinged a deer. It gave me the freedom to visit people, to get my own supplies, and to make long-distance plans.
But another part of me is scared about my bills. $1800 may not seem like much in terms of loans and big-time expenses, but it's still a big number to me. I screwed up a lot with my money this year (though not all of it was my fault), and I want to make it right, but all the conventional methods seem to be closed to me.

I suppose I'll ask my parents what they might think. For all I know, they might veto it - because I probably would need my car if I was to come back to Vermont. Then again, my mom does work part-time, so if I could get an afternoon/evening job... I don't know. My friend may be right... the times might be desperate enough for me to do something that drastic, because God knows that work has not been coming.

If I have readers - do you have any thoughts?

Monday, December 1, 2008

Minutiae

Here's an update on the 14-year-old drama queen situation - no change whatsoever. She hasn't taken what I've told her to heart; although she's said she's ashamed, she doesn't stop. She said she tried, but I haven't seen it. The only time she's ever been a presentable human being is when a mod is around, and with one mod in particular, she doesn't even go that far. The mod himself mentioned in private chat that it's always quiet and peaceful when she's not around, but there hasn't been any hugely deliberate actions that have merited a ban. So it's kind of a hopeless thing.
Also, this girl has the goal of becoming a mod herself. This would benefit her more than it would benefit the game site or its inhabitants, as far as I can see - as a mod, she would be able to ban a person at her whim. And she would have the whim, if anyone decided to speak out against her for any small reason. Therefore, I've announced that if she ever becomes a mod, then I will quit the game site for good. This, of course, dismayed her - I told her that if she ever became a mod, then it meant that the system failed. The mod present whispered to me that he would do the same.

Ugh... I can't focus on this now. My finances are going to screw me over, and there's nothing I can do. Not unless I get a job in the next month, that is, and get paid before the month is over.